28 January 2008

Pictures of the girls





Trinity being cute:)
These were taken at dinner the other night. The girls were having fun playing with Zoey's headband:) Made for a lot of entertainment while we waited for our food to arrive.

Just writing

I am feeling a little scared right now so I wanted to put some things down. I have avoided watching, reading, or listening to the news since Richard left, but for some reason I found myself reading the news portion of yahoo tonight. The thing that stands out in my mind is "5 troops killed in northern Iraq". Well needless to say I am now restless and worried. I just heard from him this morning, but I know he won't call me again for a few days if not longer. The units involved were not released of course so now I sit an wait to see if someone is going to knock on my door. This is why I have avoided the news for the last few months. If I don't I sit and worry. I have been thinking about him so much lately and every time I do I say an extra prayer for him to return to us yet I am still don't feel better. I am ready for the whole thing to be over and him to return, yet I know he loves his job and is doing everything he can to return to his family. Of course that will only get me so far. I am having a harder time this tour. I am not sure if it is I am now left with 2 children or that I am just older and more aware of everything. Maybe it is because I don't have very many good friends around to talk to that are going through the same thing. I know it does not help that everyone in our cul-de-sac has their soldier home with them now so we get to see all the families together. I just want to cry. Maybe that would be a good thing right now. Have myself a good cry and feel better. I just don't know. I need to start trusting that whatever the Lord has planned for me, He will help me through and will only give me what He knows I can handle. Yet too many days I don't do that. I want my husband here with us, not with Him or anywhere else! I think I will have to say a lot of extra prayers tonight for the families of those troops that they might get through this ordeal. Having put this all down I feel a little better, but I am still very nervous and scared. I ask that you send out some prayers for the soldiers and their families left behind that those we are close to return safely to us.

Thank you for your support. We love you all.
Naomi

21 January 2008

Video Teleconference and update

Okay well since there seem to be so many of my friends that are doing this blog thing I thought I would give it a try. Not sure I have a huge theme going with it or anything, mainly just my thoughts and feelings going on right now with my man being deployed. So here goes my first official blog!

Well to fill everyone in that might not already know, Richard deployed for the second time to Iraq. He left in November right before our girls' birthdays. Well while the communication was slow in the beginning I can now say it is so much better:) He calls and emails as often as he can (though not as often as his '04 tour) so we are able to hear from him at least once a week in some form. Well yesterday was the the very first Video Teleconference (VTC) that we have been able to have with him! It was amazing getting to see him. The time was short, but well worth it as it helped make the day a little better for all of us. He is going to try to sign up for another VTC next month, but we have to see if they are going to offer them monthly first. Knowing him he will let everyone else get one before he takes another one:) But that is okay since we should be seeing him in March or so for his leave. I must say he looks good considering the conditions they are living in. He seemed to be in good spirits as well so that was good to see.

As for our girls, well they are doing okay. Zoey is taking this tour harder then the last, but then again she understands a lot more this time around so I would not expect anything less of her. She is doing well with it just has days where nothing really seems right and she only wants her daddy home with us. She is doing great in school and has made the A/B Honor Roll yet again! We are so proud of her. She is doing great with tennis and is improving all the time. Trinity is well. She does not understand what is going on with her daddy being away, but she tells him "I wov you daddy" every day and tells him "daddy bye bye" when she sees his picture on the screensaver. She usually reacts to the whole thing with however Zoey and I are feeling at the time. I try to save my break downs for when they are not around to see it, but Zoey is not able to do that so sometimes I have to deal with both girls crying for their daddy.

I am doing okay. This deployment has been a lot harder then last time, but I am trying to find ways to keep myself busy. I am still at home with Trinity all day and love that, but part of me would also like to get away for a few hours each day so I am hoping that something will come up that I can leave her with child care for a few hours. We have been attending church in town for a while now and I am truly enjoying it and am thinking of making it our "home". To the point of I feel something is missing if we skip a service. I really look forward to going on Sunday mornings and the girls seem to like it as well. Zoey has even been asking about being baptized. So now I have to help her with that. The church we are attending also has a miltary wives support group that meets a couple Wednesdays a month that I have been attending since last month that has also helped me with this deployment. We are a diverse group of spouses with some husbands just leaving, some returning soon, and some that have been back a while so we are able to get all different kinds of views from everyone. It is very helpful some weeks to know that I am not alone even if it feels like I am. I have also been able to get to know a lot of the spouses in Richard's unit. We are starting to get to know each other and try to get together as often as we can. I have a great group of ladies to lean on when things get tough!

I think that is all for this first post, but I hope to put up some newer news and pictures in the next few days/weeks. Thank you to all our family and friends that have been supporting us on this journey. For those of you that we were able to see over Christmas, it was a wonderful trip and we had such a good time visiting with you. If we missed you this trip, hopefully we will be able to catch you on the next one. We love and miss all of you very much.

Love,
Naomi